since such a dodgy break up, i have ended up getting to know a guy from Kent n he seems such a good guy! 25 whichfor me is Real Young and is a chef, which is a bonus! do love to cook and to have someone cook for me is always a bonus. n he also enjoys pampering his ladies too! candle light, baths, food, massages, snuggles..... i went more than weak when he rang that off to me....!

Today we carried on talking this morning before i went to work and was wanting to carry on talking to him. butas we was talking via an pp ehich is on my iPad, i couldn't carry on the convo. So was more than excited to get home and see if he had msgd me back. i even thought maybe i should give my number so we can txt on the go.... a nice distraction is what i need at work! lol

Once i got home n straight onto my iPad n guess what??
Yes, he messaged me back! and so we swapped numbers n he started getting ready for work. after a bit he went wuiet, so i guessed he was on his way to work.. but he ended up ringing me! he fancied carrying on the chat so got describing how cold he was n bursting for a fag n the loo. in great detail! which was soo funny!! afterwards he tried to call me again but i was chatting wit my sisters so he will have to wait til after work.
"Why is it i have to work when something good happens!?" I believe he means me...

Well since last being on here, i have had a bf n got rid. I know, shouldn't be so harsh. But when you find that someone you are with is falling in love with you and you don't feel remotely the same then you split and they go into total meltdown, you soon start to be grateful you got rid! N he days i have issues... I may have some, but least i am moving on with my life. You are enjoying urself stuck in your room wallowing in self pity! I am making goals for myself and am going to get out there to achieve them! You are 34 and clearly had some sort of life before me.. But alas, you decide to be a baby about things that have gone wrong for you and ensure that whoever comes in contact is dragged with you!

I have done my wallowing and am not going to go back to that hole again! Let alone have company... So leave me a'flamin'lone and fucking move on!

Finally feel that I am free from the heartache, love-stricken, hung ova the ex. I had a napkin he shaped into a rose years ago... I still had it til yestrday n stood out in the rain, hail n wind, I burned it saying "I'm finally over you. It's over. I'm free."

He will always be in my heart, a big part of my life.. But he will never win me back, make me feel anything more than admiration towards him. I know he was right at the time, I am better off without him. Just kind of hoped to prove him wrong! But I know that with me being able to move bk home, which is very far from him, has helped us both. Life is better now and I am a better person for it!

I bet he doesn't talk bout me as much as I probably do bout him. But he was the one who fell out of love with me, so I have more of a right to be hung up on him longer. But it hasnt even bin 6 months n already iv got over things, forgiven him for the way he stubbornly tried to tackle things, hurting me in the process and have moved on. Don't think will really know if I have moved on till I see about dating again. Which right now is a huge 'not bothred!' lol
We will see.. Time is a great healer n I have bin doing so well with my new Avon career I can now carry on doing something I love n not have commitments towards anyone else.. Just myself n family.

God I love my life!

Things over the past few months, have started to improve, feel easier, show sheer progress.

I still have a down time about my ex, weep into my pillow and have soppy songs on. But my heart doesnt ache as much as before, I dont cry as much as before, I don't dwell for so long anymore. Slowly, things are moving on now. And I have had VERY happy days/weeks!

My Avon business is growing, customers love me to turn up at their door, love to spend £15+ to choose from my Freebie Bag!! So my orders are over £200 now and still have more to collect! Oohh! And my team is growing! I have 7 in my team so far and hope for more.. I will soon be qualified Sales Leader at the end of this month and earn commission from them earning too!
I do love how my team is growing and hope the future for them is every bit as bright as it is for me. I will guild them every step of the way to achieving their goals and dreams

Guys..... Iv bin meeting plenty! N girls too! Have both bin throwing themselves at me! When im not interested, they dont care! When am good n ready, will go n get some! Not wen u want me!! Geeez!

After losing a stone being happier.. Got to try 2 outfits togethr for a nite out.. Wot u think??

Well, such a long time since I've blogged or even thought of writing anything! So downloaded the Blogger app so now can write as much as I like, or be able to afford to! (wap depending)

So, since splitting from my Fiancé, moving in with a friend before getting myself ready for Big move back with my sisters, nephews n their father. Then dad died 4days after my birthday. Now am settling back into Avon, started my Trainee Sales Leadership and on my way to receiving some earnings from my downline I have built in the past 2 weeks! So any UK peeps who are interested in a new Hobby, enjoy more time with family and friends and great new products, please add me on Facebook, join my page http://www.facebook.com/VirtualAvonRep and lets work together...!

I'm also waiting for my CRB ID and be able to start my Passenger Assistant job. Looking after disabled children on transport to n from school.

Just a matter of time.. Which I don't have right now! No money = no life..!

Had a snooze after morning work n had a dream..

Was with ex's best friend and we was watching a movie. I asked about whether her n ex were exclusive yet. She said that they wasn't exclusive yet but were seeing each other. both just sorting their heads out over things. Then I found I was late for work. Ex come in and offered to take me to work. I went downstairs n he followed suit, I asked him how long they had been seeing each other. Before we split up? During the split? Whilst I was in midst of moving out n moving on? He told me that the wasn't seeing each other. 'She Told ME!' But he denied it all. I was fine with it till he started to deny it.. If I could see there was something there and he couldn't, how on earth can he get on with life with someone he actually suits better!?
I stormed out and he still offered to take me to work.. 'LIKE HELL!!' and then woke up..

Believe my mind is getting over the fact there could well be something there.. Even though he would be stuck in The Friend Zone.. lol
I've put many guys in that place before..

He has not answered my Q but has said that in his heart and head, we are doing the right thing splitting up.

As my heart has now stopped aching, I still need to know that he is not in love with me.. so I can finally get on with my life. If he still can't answer me that, then I know that he could still chase after me once I leave and make life harder to be friends with him.. I had this last relationship and I will not have it again! Will not go through that again..

But have asked him to tell me that he is NOT in love with me.. If he can't answer that then I know that I cannot be friends with him any longer. I can't have that over us.. over our friendship.

So have asked him to go through the house and place things that are mine in my room so I can stat packing up and moving out my things. All he wants he can take for himself.. Most of it won't matter to me that much.. It all reminds me of him. But furniture would come in handy. But won't lose too much sleep over it all to be fair..

Now the moving on can begin for me!

Had a dream earlier today.

I was walking back to my friends home I'm staying with till I get my own place, to find Someone was sat under the A14 bridge I walk under. Thinking 'Oh Shit!' I walked fast and found it was who I thought it to be. My ex fiance. He tried to talk to me but I explained to him that I was trying to fall out of love with him and get on with my life again. What life I could have in a town that reminds me of him...!

Then I ended up in my single bed n felt someone kiss me. I smiled and then realized that I'm single in my friend's home so who could it be!? I woke up startled and found it wasn't the BF of my friend (thank god!) but was my ex again!

Then I woke up.

I hate it when I have my heart hoping for things like that. It's bad enough when I walk back from work constantly thinking that one of the cars passing me could well be him. or find him waiting back at my friends place for me. I know that with me taking myself off FB has told him I want to get over things on my own so he has left me alone. But my heart still hopes that there is something there for me to hold on to. But my head knows better. Knows that it is for the best and cannot stand to go through this again if he was to chase after me.

Once I move back, that is it for us... no turning back.

Cried most of Sat night into Sun morning. Beat the bed, sobbed my heart out, begging for my 'departed' mum to take this aching pain away.

My heart still aches. Beating slowly in bits in the bottom of my stomach. I was quite happy to stay in my room, shut off from the world and everyone in it. Friend come into me and we had a good old chat. Got talking about good old times, Great times and how much family n friends back in Stafford miss me so and cannot wait for me to be back home. However much I can't wait to go back, I don't want to go! I am home.. well not living in my home but where I have made friends, my jobs, my potential career had planned ahead of me is all here..! However small and quiet this place is, I'm home now. And Stafford has become more and more astranged to me.
Haven't heard from 'ex' since I went round on Fri for few more of my things and to declare I am moving out officially. But did see that he is getting on with things now. Well, online anyway! He knows how to bury himself into things to distract, hide and cover up how he is really coping. I know him too well! That rug is getting mighty high with all that shit he is sweeping under it! Maybe with seeing he is getting on with it online will make me feel better about how to get on with life.

Still think that when he asked if I was going to move in locally so we could still see each other, might have been his way of saying that he would like to start over. Or more like I'm reading into it and he didn't men it like that. More of him just wanting to be friends. I couldn't stay around here. It's bad enough being friends with people he is friends with. or on FACEBOOK! We joined up there together at the same time. so even being on there is like being with him! So have deactivated my account for the time being. Till I get myself sorted mentally and financially. New home, job and life. All over again.

'yay'

Well, things are now over between me and my one true love. Yeah, I know. Couldn't be as we would still be together, married by now!
But things grow distant and life has to go on.

I couldn't stay there with him. It is too hard to be just friends, knowing that it could never be the same. It is hurting both of us so I am staying with a friend for the time being, sorting out a place and job back in my home town.
Is it bad that I'm hoping he chases me and tells me those words I long to hear from him?

I don't want him to be waiting for me. Or for me to be waiting for him. As we could be waiting forever. And find that it could end up the same as right now, so best we just part ways. How hard for us both to get on with things. Didn't want things to go like this. Or to effect anyone other than us two. But it has effected family and friends.

I have kind of locked myself away from others. Just work n friends I'm stopping with see me around and that is it. Really don't need others wanting to help me, showing sympathy or support. I need to find my own way through this and at the moment, I think I'm doing so-so.

Time will tell. Do love you, long for you, miss you, in love with you.

 

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Well, had our Christmas Fair this weekend and even with it being Sunday, it was very busy! And some of the ideas we may have in our heads about what to get for whom, may not work out too well.

 

So have been doing quite well with Avon for my first Campaign. Am quite pleased to find that I have been able to get some customers. Many if not al of them hadn’t had Avon for a long time! And were happy to find that I was doing it so they could be able to order again from home.

So hoping to be a loyal Avon Rep for customers to enjoy shopping with me, advice, parties and more.. Which we all want from our Shopping Experience. Do you know of anyone who has had good experiences with Avon and any Reps come to their door? Would love any feedback or ideas you may have for a new Rep starting up..

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Well, it is getting closer, still not got any clue what to get sisters for Christmas, nephews ive got an idea. Will order online, sisters want to order online too so can have less to carry, Dad will get huge box n fill with sweets! Might get one of those storage boxes n buy loads of sweeties for inside and get grandkids to cover the box with decorations.. make it more from the family than just from me..

With me being over for Christmas eve, they can decorate it that evening and then give it to Granddad the next day.. Oh do love it when I have a great idea…!!

Fella is sorted out, and just need to get something for besties now.. goodness it is on this year!!

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Well, Have started to get Christmas Shopping started, a little late than last year, but never  hour go..? the less – have got started. Shame that money is going to be tight, as well as working around Gym twice/trio times a week, Brazilian Hair Treatment 5ht Nov, Few nights out and day trip to London… Oh, and going to Family’s for Christmas Which will be more cash to fork out..!

There is not enough time in the year to get enough money together to be able to afford things!

I am excited for one Christmas present to come fro my Other Half.. Won’t say what it is in case he reads his.. All I’m going to say is… I want one myself! Might see about getting myself one as well.  I know my sisters would LOVE to have one too! Just no fair I have to wait for it..! Maybe try it out before wrapping it for him.. NAHHH!! Couldn’t do that to him really.. He wouldn’t do that to mine..? Well, he says he wants to but the seals are always tight on them..

So time will be changing soon, so will have an extra hour in bed/out drinking! heehee!! Soo love it when the time changes in winter rather than summer. Gain an hour extra from somewhere rather than losing it! I’d much rather find it than lose it again!

‘Now where did that hour go..? AHAA!! THERE YOU ARE!!’

Well, should be getting some shut eye – Always buzzing at the moment, think will be like this till after new year.. when things settle back down and not as busy with savings and spending like mad for one special day of the year.. OH GOD!!!

It is my little nephew’s 2nd birthday on 24th! EEEEEEEEEEKKKKKK!! Present n card on way!

Was looking at the website where my Saucy Undies Blog layout come from and found that they had some really good layouts on there!  This is where I got this from Just check out the Free Blogger Templates at the bottom of the blog here.. Is really worth checking it out!

Have had a few things to do recently.. Got loads going on this Oct in my business and in my life. So have been keeping busy… and yet been able to find time to be bored… Funny that really.. lol

Really am in love with this layout.. really clean and neat.. professional really lol OHH!! Totally reminded me! Wonder if there is any work for me to write up..?